This past Sunday I met with a group of ladies like me and they were awesome.  We just sat at a local trans friendly place and chatted for hours did even realize how much time had passed until I needed to go pick up my wife's medication.  Everyone was super sweet, friendly and welcoming, just getting to know one another and make plans to hang out more often as girls and not only that I am learning about new trans friendly places to go, places that don't show up on a Google search.  

Some are re-starting their journey some are like me, lifers, but we all have similar stories about growing up and what it was like to either pilfer mothers pantyhose, slips, dresses and skirts or maybe it was a sister (older sister)  or some other influence but no matter how it happened, here we are.  As I have said in previous posts, is it nature or is it nurture that compels us (crossdresser/trans) to do what we do.  For me, I think I was pre-disposed to being femme in some manner, always drawn to womens clothing.  My mother used to tell me that when I was little (barely a toddler or may a little older) my oldest sister walked by me in out kitchen wearing pantyhose (I'm sure she had on other clothing) but mom said that when my sister passed me my head would turn.  Now, I'm sure there are psychological reasons (depends on which psychologist you ascribe to) as the reason for it but I think it was because at early age I was starting the journey into the woman I am today.

Looking back to the various time periods in my life, elementary school age to junior high to high school and college I realized that being a girl is good for stress relief escape from the real world or escape of identity.  However, it is my identity, it is part of who I am and now it is not an escape but an expression and acceptance of my real self.  Living as a woman every day or most days, getting up and getting ready for work, going out to lunch, shopping after work and generally being accepted as a woman has been a dream come true, especially with past events like going on a cruise and going out as Sarah, or flying commercially, getting married or going to concerts and going out with my wife.  I really am happy at how this chapter or chapters of my life are turning out.  

Being out with the girls just had me reflecting on my own journey some good, some bad but it's how we grow, by looking back to see where we have been and move to look forward to see where we are going because sometimes we know and sometime we don't.  All I know is I love being a woman.